when light is gone

my problem was
that you kept me here too long
and today is when
we'll regret that I came by
when did I say this
I will never leave
I can't recall this
moment in my life

life is full of darkness
and murderers come my way
someday you will join them
and I will let you in


2. I Am Nothing

tonight I'm nothing
it doesn't matter where I've been
delay of reaction is
the unseen movie of this life

I remember one of my friends
telling me to go ahead

water on every side
there's a dead spot in my eye
if I listen close at night
there's something coming my way

like someone called my name
but I didn't care to look that way
I just fixed my eyes into the crowd
it would have been strange to turn around

if you would tell me that I was someone
then for a second I would think
just like I would try to consider
how it would feel to know

I have to get on with this
it's a decision for tonight
out to look for chances
it is murder of my mind

once I was someone new
I was chosen for a while
then with time I am changing
at least that is what they say

what is worth with being here
I pray so often for a change


3. In Death, A Song

you came back to a place without sun
and you don? t seem to know what you've done
to me
now I see
darkness is what you left in me

you went with nothing to fear
came back with nothing to lose
and with summer leaving us here now
we? re thinking of what to chose

I know so well what is wrong
a language that is hard to speak
for all of us lies in death a song
in times when truth is turning weak


4. Had To (Leave)

so you were with us until the last minute
and then you were gone from here
and I watched and I just figured out
that I will never see you again

I had a choice
you had to leave
into the night
this was my choice

it's so hard to explain what I meant
when I said that I wanted you dead
but I saw you fuck up and I just can't get back
the feeling I had for you

so I put all my strength into my only will
it was the only thing to do
and now I only regret that I cried
cause you would never do that for me


5. This Punishment

will I be strong
no friends by my side
in a black room
no spirits abide

who is judge now
when I wait for this
punishment

when I come in
from where I've been
they raise their voices
on a given signal


6. Right Into The Bliss

by a black road
giving a brief smile
something's on the way
forgotten for a while
and you try to speak this
without a voice down by a black road
we try to forget and try to make it through

someday we'll go
further from this right into the bliss
some night we'll try
to leave this place for another

they keep pushing me
so far from every chance
makes it so much harder
for me to carry on
so I try to speak this
without a thought down by a black road
we try to forget and try to make it through


7. No Good Can Come Of This

this is no good way out
but it's a challenge or so I see it
death's head upon my wall
afield lies nothing but disorder

no good can come of this
whatsoever I can tell you
no good will ever come of this
the road to happiness I never knew

I read a letter I never sent
and saw me smiling on a picture
this is nothing I remember
whatever made me feel so

there are children
on the freeway
I have my ways
playing with death


8. Strained

end
sometimes a start for others
end
I don't know the word beginning

sometimes fear is power
like when I lost control
this time it has to come to an end

I'd like to try to live my life again
I'd like to see where I was going wrong


9. A Darkness Coming

so near
so close
something bad is seen
but I
seem to be
the only one that can see
there is a darkness coming

and they
the others
they don't know a thing of what's next
but I'm not here to say
what should be done about this
I just lift my eyes to watch

I saw it coming
something bad


10. Nightmares By The Sea

[by Jeff Buckley]

beware the bottled thoughts of angry young men
secret compartments hide all of the skeletons
little girl wants to make her home with him
in the middle of the shore she wonders

"don't know what you asked for"
"don't know what you asked for"

all young lovers know why
nightmares blind their mind? s eye
your rube is young and handsome
so new to your bedroom floor
you know damn well were you? ll go

I've loved so many times and I've drowned them all
from their coral graves they rise up when darkness falls
with their bones they'll scratch the window
I hear them call

"don't know what you asked for"
"don't know what you asked for"

stay with me under these waves tonight
be free for once in your life tonight


11. Black Session

I sense infliction in the air
it's only me
I'm fucking up old times
it's a remembrance

o this
black session in my mind
o the black

I was too weak to fight
once more I let go
it is a black session
an invitation of sorts

I keep on living in this my only wish
that life will be good someday
I keep on losing my sleep because of this
seems so hard just to stay

so if you come by just this last time
I'll be here
and I will talk to you like
if this had never been

o this
black session in my mind
o the black


12. No Devotion

i've turned down all devotion
i'm so far from being here
can't bring forth more power
than i have already done

tonight i'm trying
and i see all dread in me

but then i lose again
all hope of being someone
this lack of devotion
will put me to an end

so if you want to save me
and stop me when i run
just tell me that i'll have now
a day less to live when i'm done


13. Fractured

knew i would fall if i tried
so i held back for a while
you pushed me so hard, i had to go
i tried to be strong, then i failed

i would like to say this
just in case you didn't know

well your soul is fractured
i know what it's like as well
i have sold my soul
i traded it for hollow gold